This Channel/Group is mainly for posting images/videos that are "beautiful/aesthetic" in a way that’s hard for me to describe. In part, they give me a feeling like, “Yes! That’s it, that’s the life I want to have,” or “Yes, I want to be like that.” These (images and videos) might: 1. Look sexual (because I want to become like that — not for "self-pleasure") 2. Be depressive/suicidal (Not encouraged — they partly serve my personal purpose) 3. Be scary (Ehh… I don’t have much to say — I just want people to be aware before judging me as wrong) 4. Reflect atheism/fakery (Some images might involve or directly reference religion — certain groups of people might find that offensive, so please be aware of that in advance) Overall, it’s something that can’t really be put into words — especially if you don’t have the same mental illnesses I do.

A few things about me: - I’m a sensitive person. - I’m easily triggered in negative ways and tend to absorb things rather than take them out on others. (I often speak badly about myself—if it ever spills over onto others, it's only because I’ve reached my breaking point.) - I’m always trying to achieve the ideal “standard” female body. (There might be some photos that seem sexual, and yes, that’s true—but for me, it’s more about wanting to have that kind of body, not about wanting to sleep with someone who has it.) - I often wish to die, but I can’t bring myself to commit suicide. (If someone told me they’d kill me, I’d honestly prefer that—it’s because I’d rather they carry the guilt of taking my life than me doing it myself.) - My mental state is unstable in many aspects. (Built-up trauma—oh well, that’s life. There are unfair things in the world, and while many people choose to explode, I’ve always walked the quiet, invisible path instead. I’m a passive person, really.) - According to some of my friends, I’m definitely addicted to negativity—the feeling it brings. At the very least, it’s predictable and within a level of control I can handle, or maybe have gotten used to. And honestly, I don’t deny it. At one point, I even thought about making my body attractive enough so that if someone killed me, at least my corpse wouldn’t look ugly. (And yes, I starved myself partly so I wouldn’t soil myself when I die—like they mentioned in Game of Thrones.) (This might be enough for now—though not everything. I’ll update it if needed. Sowwy~)

Topics List: - General (NSFW maybe?) - 2D (NSFW)

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